What does our child go through in all of this?!

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Well, funny you should ask... Absolutely nothing ... As long as I’m not dehydrated.... She's fine. She measures bigger than expected at every appointment... She has a round belly and is completely healthy... Incredibly low described as "perfectly fine" when tested for brain or spinal disorders... She kicks and loves music being played, hates it when I sneeze and when all is said and done and we can actually eat has the demanding appetite of a football player in college (she gets it from Drew.) and while all of those things are huge wins... When I don’t feel well, I don't celebrate those small things. 

.. I keep saying she, by the way... it's a girl...

I'll be honest, I was devastated. sounds pitiful right? but truly... devastated to find out we were having a daughter... why? because through all of the tears, pain, agony, and prayers... I kept repeating to myself... I can only do this once... I'm not doing this again, and I knew in my heart... if I had a son... I could be done... Drew is the last Thomas, his father is deceased... he's the only blood grandson... and Audrey... if she would have been a son, I was given the opportunity as rough as my pregnancy is to tie my tubes after delivery. Still considering it. 


Her name will be Audrey Kaydence Thomas 

Meaning behind her name...

Audrey means - Noble Strength... of course, Drew picked her name out... because of my love for Audrey Hepburn... here's me in bed with Audrey... watching Hepburn movies 

Kaydence - The letter between B for Barnes and T for Thomas happened to be the letter K... she loves worship music when we're at church, and the only time I'm listening to Stevie Wonder or Trap music (for family members this means Hip Hop Thug stuff)... so it had to begin with the letter K and favor music... so we went with Kaydence also, a name drew picked.

 
I spend a lot of time praying through my storm and pleading for it to stop raining. I spend a lot of time not defining peace when I really could be and should be more often. That god gave us the gift we prayed for... We just didn’t picture these would be our directions on the box. God does promise in Isaiah 66:9 "In the same way I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born,” says the Lord. “If I cause you the pain, I will not stop you from giving birth to your new nation,” says your God."

so, for now... we prayerfully await the blessing of our Audrey Kaydence... one day and one bag at a time.

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