2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

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Deuteronomy 31:6 (esv)

6  Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.”



Knowing that God is there to take care of all of my earthly fears and worries is quite soothing. Favorite recent quote of all time currently by Curtis “50 Cent” Jackson – “You can pray, or you can worry but you can’t do both.” So I’ll explain the things I pray about, because I have nothing to be afraid of, I’m not in control of my own life. When my day comes when it is over, it’ll be glorious and special, nothing to be afraid of, but to look forward to (years and years from now)

I pray I’ll be able to have children. Believe it or not, it’s something a lot of couples struggle with and in this day in age, it’s sad to think of all of the parents who truly want to become parents and for reasons beyond our control, it’s not possible without modern medicine or drugs. I pray I’ll be able to successfully conceive and carry children to full term who live healthy lives... Sadly, that is a lot to ask for today.
             
I pray I’ll never end a marriage in divorce. Again, If this is shocking to you check statistics… realize there are so many idols and other things in life that people fall victim to which harm and hurt their relationships and marriages. I pray that my fight for marriage and my future husbands fight always enter the battle together to come out on top. I pray that my children will see the same conquered battles and follow in our footsteps when they marry as I plan to follow my own parents… this being said, Drew also watched a courageous, long drawn, effortless affectionate love displayed by his parents until the day he lost his father, and to this day, in his own heart and mind, his parents are still happily married… that is what I want. I want my children to remember about my love life. That it was so full of passion that if anything happened to either of us, 12 years down the line, they still see the positive, not the negative from the picture we displayed.
                                    

I pray I will be able to accomplish success based on the lives I’ve changed not the zero’s on my paycheck. I don’t want to be controlled by my wallet. I have God in control of that. He’s my personal banker, he takes care of all of my needs, and my desires. I don’t ever want to be ruled by money or in fear of losing my house, gambling issues, or indebted to my credit card company. I don’t want to avoid phone calls from banks or financing companies.  Due to the greatness in my parent’s financial peace, I’ve never seen that in my household, and I don’t want my children to see it. I want to constantly love the job I have because I’m able to make a difference, and I want to live comfortably with the amount I’m given, not live beyond the amount I spend. 
                         

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